Meshed lines threaded tightly
Vertically, our relationship, from then till now till then
Horizontally, the influencers
[past relationships, upbringing, culture, biochemistry, libido, emotions, beliefs, obstacles; Things.]
Things complicate the relationship, until:
The space where the criss-crossing is noticed.
Millions of spaces, that are windows to that which all of this is built on:
Awareness.
So now, instead of pulling Thing threads, which tighten or loosen our Relationship Threads,
I step from space to space to space.
Sometimes I fall through; you sense it and meet me there
Other times, there is stasis and entropy as our small s selves circle like vultures over unmet expectations we have of each other. The Relationship Strands crackle and smell.
I've learned from experience that pulling or pushing doesn't work with you.
So I have chosen to stand back, watch my emotions and feelings pass by
Float through the awkwardness we both bring to our investment
And live as well as I know how - which is standing in the spaces, in and as Awareness.
You might respond, you might not. My expectations might or might not ever be met
But as Awareness, those are just more Things anyways.
And while yes, I wait for you to broach that which I think *should* be important to both of us
I realize that getting from These Things to That
Is simply a process of Standing as That
Being love
And welcoming your embrace or rejection, contraction or expansion.
Relationship teaches through fire. I've walked through it, and now, I hope for the sublimation of waiting to Being to complete.
Be well,
Be.
